An unstoppable horny beast with a raging hard-on
Here goes nothing. Again. I am going to admit something here in this journal entry that you may or may not have known. I am a pervert, sick and demented pervert. I am a sexual predator (not in a gross child molesting sense of course but rather just a big pervert), always out on the prowl for fresh meat. But that much is obvious. What isn’t clear is where I’m going with all this. I’ve turned myself into a monster, an unstoppable horny beast with a raging hard-on roaming these lands for anything sacred and pure; all this for the simple and natural pleasures that only raw untamed sex can give you.
And now, the moment that I’ve been waiting for, some semblance of an answer to the burning question, “What do I want out of my life?” To attempt to answer this question I must highlight the things I hold dear to me. So what do I hold dear? That’s a tough question. Some thing I hold dear to me is the time I spend thinking. I couldn’t do without it. Since I must work in accordance with social traditions and personal financial requirements, I need to have a job where I can use my mind and not just to achieve some end but to use it to reflect on what it is that I’m doing, to constant reevaluate who I am, why I’m here, what I’d rather be doing, and how to go about doing what I’d rather be doing. I’m not sure there is such a job as that so I’d most likely have to have time to do that in my spare time. Since I’ll be needing so much spare time, I need a job that isn’t too stressful and demanding. And if it is demanding and stressful, it somehow plays a role is achieving the mental workout I require. Ok, that’s one thing I hold dear, now it’s time for another. I’m a very social person. I’m dependant on other people. I seek other people throughout my day to talk to. I need a certain amount of interpersonal communication each day or I go crazy. That could be a result of my thinking too much but either way, I enjoy being around people and talking up the shit. Since work will undoubtedly take up the majority of my time I’ll need some type of work where there are other people that have a personality that I can converse with and maybe hang out with outside of work. I’m skeptical of that happening in a typical programming job. So, I’ll need interesting people to socialize with and a job that isn’t too demanding. Ok now we’re getting someplace. What else do I hold dear? I like girls. I like them a lot, all of them. Now that’s something you just won’t find in a programming job. It’s possible but a stretch of the imagination at its best. Now, where would I be meeting all these girls? Would it be in my spare time? Doubtful. I’ve got plenty of that and no girls hanging around. So I’ll need a job were there are girls, lots of slutty girls, the best kind. Let’s see what we’ve got so far, a job that isn’t demanding and there are interesting people to socialize with lots of which include hot slutty girls. Ok, now we’re heading down the right direction here. Certainly there must be something else that I need in my life. Should I say I need Laura? If I do, that’d certainly make some people happy. In fact, I feel compelled to add her because somehow I’d be looked at badly if I didn’t. I’m not saying that she isn’t a great part of my life. I’m just trying to point out things about me that I don’t feel will change. I’m lazy, I love slutty girls, and I like to talk shit with people, that’s me in a nutshell really. If I keep talking it’ll all end up bad but fuck it, it’s my journal, or blog as some people like to call it, and you shouldn’t be reading it anyway. Woops, late for class. Oh well, I’m on a role here. Let me try to wrap this up quick though. So what type of job isn’t too stressful and demanding where I can meet interesting slutty girls? I could be a bouncer at a strip club. I could open my own club. I could be a bartender, a lifeguard, a rapper, anything porn related, and probably a million other things. So I’ll stick with porn related. It seems like it’s a natural fit for a pervert like me. But what and how is the next question. Hrmm. I have to go to class now.
UPPDATE: While chatting with my brother as I was watching some girls at the gym before I worked out, I came to another aspect that I need in my life. I think I need it so much so that I’m surprised it wasn’t the first thing I thought of. What I need most is someone to confide in, someone I can tell things that I wouldn’t even tell you. I suppose some close friends and Laura give me my share of it. If I didn’t have anyone to share some secrets with I’d be lost. It’s like I wouldn’t have any bonds with anyone. It’d be a bizarre situation indeed. So I’ll need some close friends that accept me for who I am and aren’t bothered by what I do. Laura fills that roll perfectly. I love her so much.
